Not much or not at all? Seeing your review history you have "gone early and gone hard" in your punting career. With all of your bookings seemingly positives apart from where you've got radio silence. It's a great record but one which suggests that you are a glass half full type of guy.
It strikes me that you may have a desire to be liked, to receive that validation, and that you want the next hit of a positive reaciton from another rather than taking the time to reflect on what you've just done. It's an addictive behaviour trait in a hobby which is also addictive. The SPs concerned may have been interested in getting to know you better genuinely for your dashing looks and winning personality. But it could also be that you are giving off the vibes of a needy individual that is ripe for milking.
Please don't think I'm trying to burst your bubble or drag you down. There's a genuine concern that you are setting off on a path that may be doing you more harm than good. You've acknowledged some of your previous issues with your self image, which shows that you have a certain amount of self awareness which hopefully you can use to allow you to live your best life.
I have punted three times this year, once per month. I had spells last year when I was flushed and wanted to go all out, so yeah... two in a day, three or four in a week. It was for fun, not validation.
I meditate every day, for an hour. I am a reflective person and have taken time out from punting on several occasions since I started last Feb. Minimum of a month at a time. I regularly reflect on my activity and how to approach it in a healthy way. Thankfully I don't have much of an addictive personality... I get immersed in things, I can be a glutton, but addiction, no. Lucky for me.
I am not vulnerable or primed for exploitation and I don't think I want to be liked any more than the average person, it's a pretty inherent syndrome (wanting to be liked) in our society. Yes, I get off on female attention but there's only one SP I've seen more than a couple of times and she's a fave/regular. Even then, my visits are intermittent. Compliments do make me feel good yeah, but that's part of the whole experience. A few years back it would have been a different story, but I honestly do take punting with a pinch of salt most of the time. I'm not an infallible, emotionless punting robot, but I have enough awareness to keep myself in check.
Also take note that I didn't follow up with any of those three SPs that suggested we could meet out of the punting arena.
As PYWM said, your response/armchair psychoanalysis felt like a not-so-thinly-veiled put down. British society has a (bad) habit of knocking people down. I don't think I'm anything special, I wasn't posturing, but I am confident in myself; my character and my physical appearance. And so I should be. I've worked on myself a lot to be in a position to describe myself (matter of factly) as I did a few posts back.
If it really was genuine concern, then thankyou.
