External Link/Members OnlyExternal Link/Members OnlySo this is going to be less of a review of a specific booking and more of an exposé of my entire 1 ½ years spent seeing Sam on a weekly basis, I’ve written another review on her in the past that was much more favourable, but that was back when I liked her and didn’t realise what an awful person she is, so feel free to disregard it entirely. Also, I know you’re reading this Sam, because you read all of these, so I just want to say, screw you, you're a self-centred, manipulative liar who doesn't care about anyone but herself.
The Story:I started seeing Sam in September 2022, the first booking was for an hour, and I had a good time so I decided to keep seeing her, but I typically like to see a girl once every week, but I couldn’t afford one hour every week with escort prices being what they are so for the second booking I went with 30 minutes, when I told her that, she said that she lets regulars that she likes have 45 minutes for the price of 30, so I was pretty happy with that. From then on that 45 minutes kept getting longer and longer, with bookings typically ending up ranging from 2 to 2 ½ hours while still only paying her for 30. For context, I see escorts primarily for company, so it’s not like I’m spending all that time hitting the back of her throat or having her on all fours, it’s mostly just laying down and talking while I stroke her back, so it makes some degree of sense why extra time with me isn’t exactly hard labour.
Over the next year, Sam and I would spend a lot of time talking in and outside bookings, giving me a lot of insights into her personal life and history. Sam has a boyfriend, she makes that very clear to all her customers, and she said that there’s things she won’t do with a client because it would be crossing a line as certain intimacies are reserved for her relationship, this includes things like CIM or rubbing her pussy against your cock without underwear, and naturally, bareback. Sam also told me that all her relationships in the past, they’ve either been abusive and controlling with her, or she’s cheated on them. She also apparently started doing sex work pretty much as soon as she turned 18. Sam is clearly very damaged, I mean, of course she is, all escorts are aren’t they, I won’t go into anything specific, because even if I’m talking shit about her, it doesn’t feel right to reveal it here, suffice to say it’s probably exactly what you think it is.
Now, Sam isn’t the first escort to manipulate me and make me feel like shit, it’s happened twice before, with one of them even managing to almost steal £800 from me (don’t worry, I filed a claim against her and am slowly getting it all back). Now at this point I would like to be very clear, I have never fallen in love with any of the escorts I’ve seen, before I even started seeing escorts I was very aware of the trope and how fucking stupid it is to think someone you’re paying could ever have feelings for you. But escorts are naturally manipulative, and they didn’t try to make me fall for them, they tried to convince me that they were my friends, yes yes, I know, even that’s stupid, and each time they fucked me over I learned from it and had my guard up even more, but each time the next girl would try even harder to prove she was genuine about it. So when I started seeing Sam, I told her that I didn’t trust her and that I didn’t want her to become an important person in my life because it would mean she would have the ability to hurt me more than anyone else. I don’t love any escorts, but they’re still people (or so I used to think), and when you’re spending 2 ½ hours with someone every week, it’s hard not to care about them, most normal friendships don’t even spend that much time together. Sam worked harder than any other girl I’d seen to convince me she was genuinely my friend and cared about me, constantly reassuring me that everything she said was genuine and how she wasn’t being “SamanthaHardy” with me, she was just being herself (I won’t put her real name here, I’m not enough of an asshole to doxx her), how much we would talk on WhatsApp outside bookings, she joined a one-shot for one of my online tabletop games, she gave me crazy amounts of extra time during bookings for free saying it was because she enjoyed spending time with me, she’d tell me that her boyfriend and all her friends knew about me, and we even spent time together on my birthday after a booking where she took me to KFC and treated me to a meal. I know it doesn’t sound like much, but my birthdays are always an absolutely miserable occasion, one of the worst days of the year because I don’t have anyone in my life to make them feel special, so to me, that was the first time in years that I had been happy on my birthday, it meant a lot to me, now it’s just a bitter memory.
So back to the story, at some point Sam was telling me about how all the different cleaners she’d hired to clean her flat had stopped showing up and it was frustrating, and since I was working part time and even the £480 a month I was paying her for bookings was still leaving me in the red or barely breaking even a lot of the time, I was like “hey, why don’t I do it? You can just make my last booking of the month free as payment.”, so that’s what happened. I would come round hers early Monday mornings while she would get on with admin and we would chat while I cleaned the flat. Eventually she trusted me enough to give me a key to the flat and I could just come do it whenever I had free time.
Then around January 2024 I decided I wanted to save up for driving lessons, and Sam really was the only expense I could cut. So I told her I’d take a few months off booking her and she was very supportive of the idea, and at least I’d get to see her once a month as payment for cleaning, right? During that time off I had a lot of time in my own head, and I knew from experience that when you do nice things for someone, they start taking it as a given and it becomes expected, and if you then take it away they’ll treat it like you’re being mean to them instead of just no longer doing something nice. So I decided to message Sam and ask her if she felt like she’d trapped herself into having to offer me 2 hour long bookings because she always had, since I know she’d been late for a fair few events because she was spending time with me. In truth, I was hoping for reassurance, something like “I wouldn’t be giving you extra time if I didn’t want to, it’s fine”, but that’s not what I got, not exactly. She said that for a long time she’d felt like she had to or I would have been annoyed, that she had been late for social events and given up other bookings, losing hundreds of pounds because she felt she wasn’t able to say she couldn’t give me 2 hours. This didn’t feel good, she’d insisted she was my friend, but would you ever tell a real friend that you felt trapped into spending time with them because you could be making money instead? That made it very clear the extra time she'd been giving me was just an easy incentive she could provide to keep me on as a regular customer.
I was honestly dreading our next free booking, I didn’t want to go, I was in a rotten mood, but I didn’t want her to know that and cancelling the booking would have been even more suspicious, so I went anyway. The start of the booking was quite emotionally draining, she was explaining how she felt about things, I explained how I felt about things, I got out my concerns and everything seemed resolved and good again, like we’d gotten things off our chests and gone back to normal. So then we started the booking proper. Now, for this booking, I’d asked to do something specific, a “thigh job”, basically she would wear underwear, lube up her thighs and I’d fuck her thighs, I just enjoy getting as close to actual sex without wearing a condom as I can. So we’re doing that, with moisturiser no less because she’d run out of lube, then midway through she reaches down and slips off her underwear, so now I’m rubbing against her bare pussy. Now, remember, she’d always said this was a line she wouldn’t cross because this was something reserved for her boyfriend, but personally when it comes to just rubbing the outside of the pussy, I didn’t really consider it a line because because it's not actual bareback sex, and I figured she just thought it felt better and trusted me since I’d shown many test results, but then she takes my dick and actually puts it inside her, bareback.
I didn’t even realize what was going on at first, I thought maybe she was just really wet, but then I realized I was actually fucking her. I’d always said to her that if she ever offered to cross a line with me, not that I ever actually expected her to, I’d want explicit permission from her boyfriend that he was okay with it. But when someone just takes your dick and puts it inside them, it’s already too late, what can you do? I wanted to stop and get some clarification, but it felt like that would just cause problems, so I kept thrusting as she grabbed her hitachi. We went way over time, maybe about 3 hours? But I couldn’t even enjoy the experience. I was too distracted by how confused I was about what was happening and couldn’t relax at all, not to mention the fact that we were fucking with moisturizer instead of lube, on top of that, she kept pulling my dick out to rub against her clit, this also meant I was rubbing the sensitive side of my bellend against her shaved pubic hair, so it was like rubbing my cock against sandpaper, I didn’t enjoy it at all, and in fact, the next day I realized my dick had been rubbed raw by her pubic hair and had to spend the next couple of days healing from it.
After we’d finished, she was like “obviously you can’t tell anyone about that”, I asked her why she did it and she was like "because it felt good, and I trust you", and because I'm an idiot, I took that at face value and was actually stupid enough to be happy about it. I asked if this was a goodbye thing, like I got this because it was the last booking, she said no and added "but we can't do that every time", then we left.
She kinda disappeared after that. I got a few scattered replies, but she wasn't working after that happened at all, and every booking I tried to make, she'd initially agree to, but then cancel and say she wasn't working again. It wasn't until 25 days later when she asked me to come round for a chat. Because I'm a fucking idiot, I still thought this might be something good. When I got there, she said she wasn't going to be able to see me anymore, and told me that during that last booking she had actually been drinking, wasn't drunk, but had been drinking, and it was a mistake what she did and she just did it because it felt good, and that she hadn't told her boyfriend it happened yet and didn't know if she was going to because she thought he would just forgive her and it would only hurt him. I told her she had to tell him because if it's something she feels she has to hide then it's something she feels guilty about, and not telling him is just taking away his ability to make his own choice. When she told me she couldn't see me as a client anymore, I had to ask her if it was because she had feelings for me, this wasn’t some wishful thinking on my part, it was just because her current boyfriend was someone who’d had 2 bookings with her as a client and she’d decided she couldn’t see him as a client anymore because she was too attracted to him and they should just date instead, so I had to know if she wasn’t currently dating someone, would this be a situation where she’d wanna date me? She told me no, because she wasn’t attracted to me, and honestly it didn’t really bother me that I was kinda “rejected”, but it did really piss me off that it made everything so fucking pointless. At least if she’d been attracted to me it would have made some level of sense that she’d cheated on her boyfriend, it wouldn’t have made it right, but it would have made more sense, but she’d just fucked up the lives of me, herself and her boyfriend just because “it felt good”. She said she’s made a mistake letting me get so close to her as a person instead of SamanthaHardy the escort, and that if we hadn’t met how we did, we could have been friends, and that she would still talk to me and I could still clean her flat for money if I wanted (I did not, I’m not so desperate for money that I’m going to tidy up a place for you to fuck guys who aren’t me, I’m not your boyfriend, I’m not some weak-willed doormat cuck). Eventually I left and had a really bad couple of days following.
5 days later she contacted me again and asked to meet, I told her I got the impression this was gonna be bad and she said "it's not awful", because she's a fucking liar. This time though she didn't want me to come all the way to hers, so we met inside her car in a parking lot near my house. She asked me to give the keys to her flat back and told me she wasn't going to be seeing or talking to me anymore and that I was being cut out of her life, because she was prioritising her boyfriend, which obviously I understand because he's her bf and I was just her "friend”. She admitted that obviously she needs to stop drinking, but that she's going to have to keep working as an escort because she can't just stop immediately because she has bills to pay, but I wasn't gonna be in her life in any way anymore. She talked about how she doesn't know if she can patch things up with her boyfriend (an absolute lie, because her boyfriend is a total doormat who seems to get cheated on in all his relationships, I mean, you kinda gotta be a doormat if you’re dating an escort), and if she can't, she couldn’t bare to move back into her flat, so she'd have to move back in with her parents. I told her it was going to be hard not knowing what was going on in her life since I considered her a friend and this was someone who might be breaking up with her boyfriend, forced to move back in with her parents and clearly had an alcohol problem, this was someone important to me who was supposedly about to go through a tough time, so of course I was concerned.
She told me a lot of meaningless bullshit, like "she would think about me occasionally and hope I'm happy", or that she might talk to me again in the future, but I shouldn't be waiting for it to happen because it might not happen, or that if we hadn't met how we did we could have been friends, or reassuring me that I was important to her and that she did care about me. Looking back, it was all bullshit, she just says things she thinks make her a good person and would reassure people, but none of it means anything, she's never going to talk to me again, she's never going to "think of me and hope I'm happy", even if she did, that's not the same thing as missing someone, you can "think" about someone you went to school with, but that's not the same as missing them, it doesn't affect you emotionally. When I asked her "Okay, when do you think you might message me again? A year? Two? Because just sitting around waiting with no time frame is going to drive me crazy" and that’s when she started back peddling that it might not happen and I shouldn't wait around hoping for it. Eventually I went home and fell into a dark place for the next couple months.
Since then she's obviously still working, she's still on AdultWork, she's getting new feedback, other guys are still seeing her, and I just have to see her every time I bring the site up. What really pisses me off about the whole thing is that I did nothing wrong. Sam fucked up, but Sam still gets to try and repair her relationship with her bf, her bf still gets to choose to forgive her and continue the relationship, all her other clients still get to see her as much as they want because they made the right decision to just treat her like an escort, not a person, and in the end, the only person who really loses and doesn't get a say in it, is me, and the only thing I did wrong was make the mistake of trying to be her friend.
All in all, Sam worked harder than any girl I’d seen before to convince me she was my friend and that she cared about me, she made herself someone important in my life, seemingly just so I could be the one who bore the brunt of her bad decisions. Don’t worry, at this point I’ve learnt my lesson, I’m not treating escorts like they even have the capability to be your friends anymore, or even as people, they’re a service and nothing more. Don’t invest anything in them beyond the price and time of the booking. They’re manipulative by nature and they will try and make themselves important to you only because they benefit from it.
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