Gabriella - House of Divine - Victoria Station

[anishgeek]

Great comms, they were quick to respond and even though Gabriella was fully booked when a 30 min slot opened up she let me know and I decided to go for it.

80 pounds for 30 mins, it was worth a shot. At least to test chemistry, a lot of this is down to "vibes"

I am so fucking nervous, even in the shower I could not get erect. I mean just after this I went back to my room and shot 3 loads back to back. I don't even need porn sometimes, my imagination works.

Such a great girl, she really tried. I tried french kissing, kissing her body all over. She asked me what turned me on, tried teasing me, kissing my nipples which are sensitive, etc. She gave me OWO, I played with her pussy, great body, but... idk.

But I did not get aroused. For like a few minutes I think I was close but that was so fleeting. The more you worry about it, the harder it gets. I remember finding it almost funny.


Overall I am very happy with the fact I tried. Like I used to be so fucking depressed about being a virgin, not getting girls etc. Now I am like lol it does not do anything for me. All the girls who rejected me, I have no regrets, it would have felt so empty fucking them knowing they did not like me back.

The girl really desiring me seems to be such an important component of arousal. Gabriella was seductive, she was very forward, active and in many ways showed that she desired me. But I had a mental block in place I guess? 30 mins was also kinda rushed.

Hmm I think there is likely some deep conditioning about the place sex, intimacy has which has been interalized. It is kinda ironic how my close friend who is also similar to my age, a virgin had his first sexual experience a few days ago and he told me how he was crying uncontrollably after that. It was not tears of joy but due to shame, guilt and other weird emotions. I thought of myself as a very sex positive guy who is totally into experimenting but looks like your childhood demons are not that easy to spurn.

Hmm maybe I should try a girl who has a more girl next door vibe? Gabriella was kinda intimidating. OR I need someone who starts off with a slow massage, teases me and gets me in the mood before letting me fuck the day lights out of her.

Still great girl, it was a decent attempt. Thanks for the recommendation.

[boardyhell]

have you tried a blindfold when the girl enters the room ,just lie there and enjoy the sensation
the licking the massage, the expectation
the experience
just make sure its not a bloke, only joking
worth a try
I was a late starter ,so I understand where you are coming from
believe me once you have started you will go into warp drive
I wish you the very best
bh

[s0whatsnew?]

Yes, I'd suggest a tie-and -tease,  blindfold optional.   Go for an hour.   Being tied down to the bed, you have no control over your own reactions and no responsibilities.  Fewer inhibitions towards acknowledging in public  (well, 1 other!) your own pleasure and consequent attitude to the girl.   https://www.ukpunting.com/Smileys/kolobok/wacko1.gif

[stayer]

Link to her profile:
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[FiveKnuckles]

Unlucky OP.   Did she attempt OW to get you hard?

I have no experience with what I'm about to say 🏃, have you explored your sexuality fully?  You may get off on female porn but want to receive, for lack of a better word, cock.

Perhaps due to your religious/geographical circumstances, you're denying your sexual preference?
Watch some TS porn and see if that gets you going.  You can then come back to the UK for a TS experience or find a site to hook up with men. 

Thanks for the contribution.  You're getting a lot of support and solid advice from the forum.  Keep exploring and things will fall in place.

[anishgeek]

Unlucky OP.   Did she attempt OW to get you hard?

I have no experience with what I'm about to say 🏃, have you explored your sexuality fully?  You may get off on female porn but want to receive, for lack of a better word, cock.

Perhaps due to your religious/geographical circumstances, you're denying your sexual preference?
Watch some TS porn and see if that gets you going.  You can then come back to the UK for a TS experience or find a site to hook up with men. 

Thanks for the contribution.  You're getting a lot of support and solid advice from the forum.  Keep exploring and things will fall in place.

lmao things would be easier if I was sexually attracted to guys... I do have closer male friends than female friends. I don't have any rational aversions to homosexuality. But emotionally sure, I might be denying it.

I don't think it is that but sure I will definitely be exploring my sexuality further. I think this stint at UK really helped my confidence, I don't feel that desperation to get laid or fear of getting physically intimate with girls anymore.

[Rayray23k]

Seems like your getting there.
Maybe you should consider revising her again?
I mean testing th waters with multiple WG isn't a bad idea but at least this one you now know and hopefully if you tried again you'll be more relaxed and ready.
Little steps. Maybe just enjoy the foreplay and if you can maintain an erection, try oral and a hand job. Don't feel pressurised into must having penetration.

[boardyhell]

maybe try a male female bi partners but don't feel pressured

[Munter84]

Well OP, you've made the first step which is the biggest one.

One thing I would say is don't try to overanalyse your progress too much. Sex is very psychological, and mostly subconscious at that. Keep exposing yourself to these kind of pleasant, drama-free experiences and sooner or later something in your brain will click and allow you to "let go" to the point you can sustain erection.

If you haven't yet tried a body-to-body or tantric massage I can recommend them as cheap(er), even more relaxed and laid back, methods of building up that familiarity and exposure.

[isaac_gauss]

Thanks for the review. You remind me of myself. I couldn't get/keep hard with my first 3 escorts either. No issues now, but I admittedly use sildenafil, partly for confidence and to increase endurance. It helps to enable repeat performances, especially at parties. Even even as a newbie, I'd recommend going to one of the well-reviewed London parties. Best of luck.

[notcalledchris]

I didnt enjoy nor perform very well with the firstbfew whores i rented. Simply because it was a very different experience to anything i had  done before and it took me a while to mentally adjust to a fuck with no emotional involvement.  Years later that has become the main attraction.

[Ivor Hunch]

I didnt enjoy nor perform very well with the firstbfew whores i rented. Simply because it was a very different experience to anything i had  done before and it took me a while to mentally adjust to a fuck with no emotional involvement.  Years later that has become the main attraction.

truly variety is the essence of life.  for me, I need the illusion of some degree of connection for it to be good.  the zipless fuck, in Erica Jong's phrase, doesn't really do it for me.

[JamesRockford]

Try this for a sexy thrill: as you approach her street, put a blindfold on and just see where the whole experience takes you. You could end up on her bed with a hugely erotic sensual experience. On the other hand you might find yourself laying stark naked in a convenience store getting stomped.

It’ll be unforgettable anyway and keep you on edge. 😁