I'm sorry if pouring out my worries bothers you. This indeed ain't the best place, it's just I kept it inside so long that I couldn't stop myself from saying so much. So apologies for sounding so weird and raising your suspicions.
Oh and guys, I'm not having a laugh. I'm wondering what to make of all this, but thankfully there are some helpful tips, so all good.
Actually, she does sound a lot like indigoRose
Who is that? Someone else on this site, a WG or notorious troll who just won't get lost?
You know, I sometimes do wonder how comes I've never had a relationship and stuff, but given how weird I act irl, then no surprise. I've had few friends also (but at least that meant no fakes/backstabbers). I guess a lot of people are scared of me… :S Or jealous, as I'm a bit of a geek and often talk about stuff people don't understand. Yes I do attend a psychologist (an old hag who I'm scared of, not a hottie like I fantasised) and I've wondered whether to say this, especially in the face of the troll thread some of you quoted, but they do suspect ASD, that could explain why I struggle with socialising. And I spend too much time alone, too. How can I expect to meet someone then??
I guess I am still very naive, wayyy more than I should be for my age, and probably dream one day I'll just meet the love of my life on the bus, who in addition looks like a model, is intelligent, likes girls etc.… Needless to say, despite how much I ride buses, this hasn't happened. Although I've came across plenty of chicks I could not get my eyes off from. Some that made me cry when they were gone.
well cant you ask the old man to buy you some snatch then maybe as a present ?
though the other bit highlighted in bold did make me laugh your either a good troll or a mentalist
I wouldn't dare… Whenever he hears me complain how alone I am, he tells me to go to a concert or something… Well I went to an 80s one but it was full of 40yr-olds and their families :/ I did not fit in, even though I enjoyed the tunes. If I made such request he'd laugh me off and tell me to go out to people.
Well my Dad is quite direct with sexual stuff and he even tells me about women he banged before my Mum ffs, not exactly something I'd want to hear :S But that means we sometimes end up talking on such weird topics.
I'd rather be a mentalist, thanks
However bizarre what I've said so far sounds (sorry guys! This likely is my fault too, I might have fuelled some controversy myself I admit wholeheartedly), I'm just a very derranged girl who went nuts due to loneliness, lack of love, falling for an unobtainable woman and just generally stressful life(style).