Hi I'm new here so be gentle.
I have literally no sexual experiences whatsoever. I'm useless with woman which is why I turned to 'punting'. My first experience happened around 3 years ago and was so fucking bad I never did it again.
I'm now wanting to have another go as I'm older and feel more comfortable with women.
I have watched a stupid amount of porn and my likes have changed drastically. I used to be normal and into normal things but after a while I just got bored and decided to watch other things. I really got into domination type stuff recently by watching these JOI (Jerk off instructions) type videos. I find it really hot being told what to do by sexy women. After a while of watching these videos I started watching ones with mistress type women or bitchy women. Then I found myself wanting to try out these fetishes which I'm really embarrassed about. I never liked this stuff before and still confused as if I actually like it or forcing myself to like it as it's the only thing I can get off to now. It's stuff like wanted to be dominated, forced to do things like suck a strap on, body worship, being humiliated, forced feminisation, made to do cei.. Yeah this stuff is really messed up but it's the only thing that gets me off now. I've even bought a lot of these clips as I'm so into it. Normal porn just doesn't do it for me any more.
Now the big problem I have is that I have had only one sexual experience. Am I going to be ruining myself by jumping into this messed up stuff instead of having normal sexual experiences first? When I contact ladies on Adultwork I find myself looking for those that offer domination and I seem to not be interested in having normal sexual experiences when I'm horny. But once I'm not horny any more I realise I'm being stupid but it's on my mind all the time and it's at a point where I'm bored of watching it online and really want to try it out in real life.
I hope I don't come across as some sort of freak and hope to be taken seriously. Looking forward to reading your replies.