What exactly is it you want? You want to choke a girl with your cock? You want to rough fuck her like a piece of meat? Are you sure you have a grip on reality because it doesn't sound like sex to me? I see a lot of things like shooting and violence in films which I don't necessarily want to do or think are normal ways to behave, even if there might be a certain gruesome fascination in seeing it on the screen. Porn is a bit like that,you know? Maybe you should just lay off it for a while because if you are wanting to act it all out you may have lost your way.