Yesterday I had one of those experiences which makes you question yourself a bit.
I'd had a bit of a binge: hot weather, a small bonus payment and several business trips had inspired a bit of a binge: soho on Weds (very good), Sarah in York on Friday (outstanding), San Ling massage plus on Sunday (also very good).
I had Bigtits Betti booked for Monday eve and was very happy with my little "tour".
The Betti cancelled on me at the last minute, and instead of cutting my losses and saving my cash for another day, I went for a plan B- I was horny as hell and desperate to unload!
I picked a local Hungarian with one positive on UKP and she was free. On the way to the punt I already had doubts, and when she let me in they got stronger- nothing wrong with her as such, but I just didn't fancy her. She was wearing ordinary clothes and went to change- perhaps with some sexy kit on it'll be alright, I thought...but not really!
I should have walked, of course, but I'd persuaded myself that it would be fine for a functional pump & dump for £40. But there was something terribly depressing about the whole experience. She was friendly enough but there was no spark- went about it a bit like washing the car. Kissed very lightly, touching tongues (at which point I realised she was a smoker) but no passion. Bit of half hearted fondling. RO for a minute or two to which there was no discernible reaction positive or negative so I gave up. Reasonable covered BJ and then mish for about 30 seconds to finish off.
In the bathroom I spotted the tell tale red blob in the toilet- clearly just started/finished her period.
Showered and left, feeling I'd wasted my time, money and a little bit of my soul.
Started adding up what I'd spent recently and realised I need a break for several reasons!
At the moment I don't plan to review as I think the negative experience was largely due to my stupidity going ahead with the punt when I wasn't really into it, and a "negative" wouldn't really be fair- but I may do in a few days when I've stepped back from the situation a bit.
I'm not naive enough to think I won't be back- I'll probably cure it with a Nadia/Roxy soho in a week or two