So sounds like you can’t, but not to worry.
Just check you haven’t included anything that might personally identity you (I doubt your real name is Juan but it might be).
Guessing you’ve maybe met a special someone and you’re feeling sort of guilty you used to punt. Hey don’t be. Fact is that was then, this is now so it doesn’t matter. You’ve had some brilliant experiences and our past makes us.
Sometimes it’s good to look back and you may very well be back in nostalgia. Just make sure the paper chase (or whatever the term is) doesn’t show it’s you and chill.