Jesus.... I didn't know he'd passed on... I suspected it, but James was the sort of guy who'd disappear and then turn up again. I probably should have hated him but I couldn't. The little cunt was banging my bird when I was inside... He got her into boy/girl hard core porn... not to mention crack cocaine. I fully intended to beat the little cunt to a pulp... and then he turned up for a meet and his legs were all fucked up... what could I do? ... He had spineabifida .. or some sort of fuck up wrong with him. I'm not a total savage... I actually felt sorry for the little twat.
There's such a thing as free will and Antonia had that... she didn't have to do what James told her to do, so she was as much to blame as him... The best I could do was break off all contact with them and get to fuck out of that situation. And I did.