Last night was a bit wild. I rang an Escort, and she came round. She wasn’t the one I wanted, I had been thinking of having a couple round, either two females or a man and a woman. I have a fantasy of having a threesome, and watching another man have sex with a woman, and then come inside her, then I go down on her and lick her out. It’s something I’ve seen on a porn video and it really arose me.
I’ve lost my self-confidence though, I find it hard to relax. Even last night I found it hard to get an erection. If I’m masturbating I can usually get myself hard, but if anyone else is trying it just doesn’t happen. When that happens it knocks your self-confidence even more as you think something’s wrong with you.
That’s the reason if I meet anyone, it would have to be an all-night visit…so I can be more relaxed in my environment but also, if I meet someone for just an hour or two, I might not be able to get erect and then it makes me look stupid, at least overnight I have chance to really relax.
Last night was different though. I had completely rushed my decision, I ended up booking anyone I could and not the one I would like. She was a single girl from Romania. The girl I wanted to book never turned up, and I ended up falling asleep, but when I woke up, I was still really horny and I felt lonely. I just wanted to let my hair down and spend some time with a woman.
I rang her up, she didn’t look that nice on her pictures, but I wasn’t bothered, anyone would have done at this point. At one point I think I even mistook her profile for someone elses who was really overweight and ugly, but like I said, it didn’t matter.
So she tells me it will be 45 minutes until she arrives, and that she has just set off. At this point I knew it was real, and I quickly sobered up. I jumped in the shower and I really gave myself a good scrub. I dowsed myself in aftershave and I stood in my office wondering if I had made the right choice. Not the right choice in a woman, but….just basically if I had made the right choice booking an escort. After all, ive never done this before, I was petrified.
After about 30 minutes I got a phone call, she was outside. My heart raced and I think I nearly died on the spot. So I opened the door and all I could see was sunshine, even though it was dark outside.
The most beautiful, petite girl I had ever seen, she just literally took my breath away. I’m 5ft 11” and she came up to my shoulders, she must have been 5ft 1”. And she wasn’t skinny, but she was slim, she was small boned. I remember thinking to myself “If I sneeze hard, you will break”, I might even have said that out loud but I can’t remember.
Once inside it was hard to communicate with her. She didn’t speak much English. Asking her if she wanted a cup of coffee was a nightmare, I had to do hand gestures so she could understand me, and I kept thinking to myself………”How’s this going to work”? I even thought to myself, this girl is like an object for men to sleep with, it doesn’t matter if she speaks English, and she’s here to have sex with. But I’m not like that, I wanted to know her, I can’t just sleep with anyone, and I don’t see women as an object of desire.
So we end up sitting down in the lounge, and I’m shaking with fear. It’s been over 15 months since I’ve had sex with anyone, and this girl is amazing, and she is here to have sex with me, so I’m thinking in my mind “How do I start this?”
It wasn’t easy……….it took 30 minutes to try and get to know her, Technology is brilliant, we ended up using google translate on her phone so we could communicate. I thought it was really funny, and to be honest, it helped me relax around her that she couldn’t understand me. I said “Oh shit” a few times and she just looked at me……..clueless.
You can’t get away from the fact she was an Escort though……Even sat talking to her the best way I could, she kept trying to kiss me, and it’s not that I didn’t want to, but I didn’t want anything to happen yet.
I did kiss her eventually, she leaned into me and I just went with it. She French kissed me, and she was soft, and gentle. I felt some movement in the pants but I wasn’t just going to pull them off.
I booked her for two hours, It sounds wrong booking an Escort…..It makes me feel seedy, and desperate, and I’m not. I just have some confidence issues, and I wanted to try something new.
So after about 40 minutes, I kissed her again, this time I really meant it. What you don’t realise is, I haven’t had sex for 15 months, and I wank 10 times a day….i have no company really in any form, so to me kissing her, was a total mind blowing experience, but I kept in control.
She didn’t finish her coffee before I had her lay down on my sofa, it’s been cold recently, and she was shivering. I wasn’t. I felt quite hot. I held her in my arms and we giggled for a while and then that was it, I had to explore her body. I couldn’t resist……..And to be honest, no man could.
I kissed her from head to foot, literally. When I got to her thigh, I nearly came…She had the perfect body. She smelled lovely, she has a perfume I can still smell when I write this…., but she just oozed sexy.
It took a while before we went upstairs, at this point we were both naked. I wasn’t thinking about the clock, I was just thinking “OH MY GOD, This is happening”, it was clear it was…..
When we got upstairs, she was naked.I remember just admiring how beautiful her body was. I couldn’t believe it. Im not exaggerating…….she was really smoking.
I lay her down, And we wrap up in the duvet, we kiss, and I move my hands down to her crotch. She’s shaven, her pussy is warm, but dry. Im trying so hard not to get an erection writing this.
I go down on her, and it was dry, but after a few minutes, it was open and moist. She seemed to enjoy it, although I got the impression it was just business, she gave me the impression I couldn’t turn her on. I thought I was doing a good job. I love oral.
I must have spent 10 minutes licking her before I got her too wet. I remember it tasted salty and I was worried that was maybe a mans cum from a previous client, that just turned me on more as it’s one of my fantasies to eat a creampie. So by this time I was rock hard, and face deep in her pussy.
There was no smell from her pussy, it was clean, it tasted natural. In a way I wanted it to have a slight odour, but it didn’t.
She held my cock, we were lay side by side, I was fingering her and at this point I wanted to have sex with her. I was so turned on. I gestured I wanted to put it inside her and she took a condom out.
I knew than it would go soft, I hate condoms. I need to stay stimulated to remain hard, and it was going to take her a few minutes………..it was a disaster. She got the condom on and it started to go soft as I couldn’t feel anything.
We both lay in bed, I apologised, she didn’t understand me but that was the funny side. We looked at her pictures of her family, and I tried to teach her a bit of English, and she taught me some Romanian.
Our 2 hours flew by..and she was getting calls from her “Pimp”, she was a woman, she even offered to join us but I didn’t have the money, and in a way im glad she didn’t.
She wanted her to leave……and I didn’t wany Mia to go. I enjoyed her company, and we were getting along really well. I know some people might think “You paid her for that”, but this was different She really did want to stay with me, and I wanted her too, who wouldn’t?
Because she didn’t speak English well, I ended up spending an hour back and forth on the phone to her “Pimp”, who I said already was a woman.
I had no money to give her.the two hours were up. And I could see in Mia’s eyes she wanted to just relax and goto sleep, so I did something stupid. I offered her pimp goods for her to stay, and I ended up having a Romanian bloke come round to take them half an hour later.
I wouldn’t have argued with him……….You get my point, but he was an ok bloke. He said he would pick her up at 7am and I said to him “No…….8am, She needs breakfast”. He laughed and explained to Mia what I had said, she didn’t laugh, she just kissed me and said thank you.
So from this point onwards….it was me and her for 7 hours. She didn’t want a drink, only Coke. She wouldn’t eat anything, she said she was fat. Oh lord she wasn’t.
It turned out, she has a son in Romania, and she’s doing escorting to provide for him. Her boyfriend used to drink and beat her up. She came across as very vulnerable, and typical of girls who are given gifts, and friendship, a place to stay. For their services. She wasn’t enjoying her time, but her pimp was.
I tried to explain this to her, it was a funny time doing so, we laughed so hard our bellies ached. We were using google translate and half of the things didn’t come out right. But I made sure she knew she was special, and I have no regrets.
Do I have regrets now? Writing this? Read on.
We eventually relaxed and got kissing, she gave me a blow job again, which was amazing. If she did that now, I’d come in about 3 minutes. But last night, my dick would not stay erect, and I felt so stupid. I don’t know if it’s because I still love my ex, or whether I just cant relax. The whole point of me having an escort was to help me get over my ex and to build my confidence.
It turned out I ended up feeling sorry for her (Mia), and I found myself being drawn to her in a different way. I was starting to fall for her, and you may say that’s fucked up, but it was hard not to.
As much as I tried, as the night went on, I found that we were talking more and not doing anything sexual. And trust me, this was relly hard, as she was naked next to me.
I wanted to come, and I wanted to have some fun, so we did play around. She didn’t put a condom on the 2nd time, she just said “With or without”, I said without for the simple reason that I really don’t like condoms, and at the time…it felt right.
When I entered her……it was like nothing on this earth could touch me. It was so soft, wet, warm. As I made love to her I could see on her face she was enjoying it, and I could feel her getting wetter. She ended up coming but I didn’t.
I couldn’t believe what was happening, she was so amazingly beautiful, she was such a nice girl to talk to……..and I just felt I couldn’t come, it felt wrong.
In the back of my mind, I knew she was an escort, and I think that didn’t help my situation.
My mind raced as we lay there, I was thinking “How many other have done you bareback”, I got a bit scared, and I tried to explain to her, and she told me not many. I wasn’t relieved to hear it, but she was insistent on a condom at first so I do believe her.
After seeing her family pictures and after we had talked, I got to know her as a person, and it was hard to let go, I wanted to know more but really there was no more. She was abused, beaten, she had a child and she is doing this work to help her son have a better life, she doesn’t enjoy it, she told me everything.
She did however say I was different, and she liked being with me, And she wasn’t just saying that to keep me keen.
So I’d been with her now about hours, I hadn’t ome, she was tired. So I ended up having to get myself hard, and I came by accident. I wont say its her fault she couldn’t keep me up, its mine.
I ended up waking up at 8 o clock to a phone call, her so called “Driver” was outside. It was the same guy who took my things the night before. She kissed me and gt dressed, and wanted me to se her out, which I did. Given the choice I’d have give her driver a few thousand pound and just spent the weekend with her.
I miss her, and im worried about her, maybe I shouldn’t be, but I felt a connection with her, and she felt it too.
Would I book her again? Yes…….but I wont because I know I will fall for her