What we do is supposed to be a bit of fun - a more exciting option than just sitting on the sofa watching crap TV programmes or just going to the pub. People outside might not understand and see it as seedy or disgusting, but I have never felt unclean or disgusted with myself in any way, until now.
Right now I feel like I need a good wash, even having just taken part in the discussion on here which leads to vile death threats against a woman.
I am sure Dani has seen and come across some pretty unpleasant things in her time, and is probably made of sterner stuff than most, but it still must have been a shock reading sick personal threats like that. Which is exactly what the sender intended.
I always realised that where easy big money is involved it attracts some pretty unpleasant types, but luckily until now I've never had any dealings with them. I am just glad I never gave them any of my hard earned cash.
Sorry if all this sounds a bit fluffy, because I enjoy the banter on here and even when it gets insulting it's still just made in jest. But this goes way beyond that and exposes the nasty, seamy side of this business that occasionally crawls out from under its rock. As CoolTiger said when I mentioned it on the East Midlands thread this behaviour is bang out of order , and he's right, it is bang out of order.
For the first time I am feeling more than a little uncomfortable with my punting, just to know that low life scum like this are even involved and making money off the backs of all of us - punters and working girls. So I think the next thing I am doing is going to have a good hot shower so I feel a little less unclean.