Got nowhere else to go with this, so thought I'd ask on here.
Been lurking here a while. I'm into dark girls with sweet natalie being my current favourite. I'm not especially prolific but been doing this 5 years now so I suppose I've seen more than most.
Don't have a review to post but instead a cautionary tale maybe. I'm sure some will just think "what an eejit" but still I do have a burning question I need answered and one or more of you might be able to help.
3 years ago now I booked a girl on AW called English College Babe. She was pretty with an amazing bod. Tiny, athletic yet busty too. Also seemed keen. I met her second time for a drink near Euston. She didn't want to be paid. Instead, to my initial disbelief, she expressed interest in a relationship. I was wary being 20 years older. I also pointed out that I would struggle to replace her once any relationship ended, but she would have no such problem. She was quite insistent, explaining that large age gaps were common in relationships in her family.
So we started "dating". I use inverted commas as pretty soon "shit got weird". We lived on opposite sides of London. Me South, her North. We'd see each other for 2 or 3 days in a row then she'd go missing for up to 2 weeks. Simply not turn up leaving me initially concerned, then angry then puzzled when she'd get back in touch and being hugely apologetic. Eventually she confided in me that she had mental health issues which meant she had to lock herself away from the world on "bad days". Initially I bought it, partly "blinded by the bod", but also she had detailed stories about her childhood which I believed and could see might leave her with "issues".
She did need money occasionally, but not much. She did tell some obvious lies too. Against that she told me her real name and the names of people in her life (which I know are genuine), and quite a lot of personal stuff which I'm fairly sure was true. We also slept together without protection quite a lot. I know why I did this. Couldn't help myself. Why she did it I do not know, except that when her challenged her about infidelity she used the fact that we didn't use protection as evidence of her faithfulness. Again I accepted this, but in hindsight I can see it's a nonsensical argument.
She even moved into my flat at one point (not where I lived but a flat I was planning to sell), which proved to be the end point as she was often not comfortable with me being there. It was too much and I decided not to be strung along any more. Initially I didn't miss her much, but over time I missed her more as the memory of the crap faded whilst the physical stuff stayed annoyingly vivid. If I'm being honest I'd say I still miss her today.
But here's the thing. I don't want her back. I know she'd destroy me. What I want is to know if I was an idiot to believe the tales of mental illness etc. I want to know if she had multiple "benefactors" on the go at the same time. Her profile is gone now but she had 5 reviewers, and 4 of them (including me until very recently) were not rated again after seeing her. My suspicion is that she was possible seeing all 4 of us at the same time.
I reckon if my suspicion is right then amongst the users of this site is someone with a very similar story. I suppose what I really want is to have the suspicion confirmed so I can just add her to the "lying whore" column and move on.
Anyone?
