Thank you for all that Bootleg, I appreciate it. I know I'll get over it eventually, but atm it feels the same as being ditched by a long term gf you still love. And I don't mean I was in love with Roxy, cos I wasn't. It's just that I'm going through the type of stuff that that situation causes - stomach churning, head all over the place, can't face food, can't sleep. It's f***ing horrible. I just wish she'd contact me to explain why she did it. I'm so stupid I'd even give her another chance to reorganise the session.
Mate you have been scammed. It happens, buy sadly with a conning prossie there is little you can do about it.
All the feelings suggest you have got attached to the girl, is very dangerous as on the whole there is little to trust with a prostitute. They not only sell sex, they sell emotions. Sensible punters will see the line and see that the affection, friendship and feelings are purchased and will run out as soon as the money does. It is a cliche, but it really is merely a business deal.
You face the choice, in future, of either accepting this and hardening up, or accept you are not emotionally cut out for the paid sex industry. Someone not emotionally prepared for the negatives, will end up skint, emotionally fucked up or both