Interesting to find a thread about me, good to see everybody's opinions!
In my defense I do not self harm anymore, I quit around age 17. I was in a dark place, but have never been diagnosed with any mental disorder except perhaps depression, never had a drug/alcohol addiction, and I have a genuine lust for life.
I am new to both domming and escorting, so even reading people's more negative reactions have been helpful too.
I have done a handful of meets through Johnny Rockard, and had some content filmed with him. He also got me a porn gig with a Netherlands based company and I will be flying to Amsterdam to shoot with them before the end of this year. He and I have parted ways as I wanted to be independent from him and we had a few creative differences. He helped me out a lot, let me cam at his place to get back on my feet when I'd just come back from traveling, and introduced me to the client who posted here for an escort meet, and I am grateful for that, but I didn't always agree with the way he ran things, so we worked together for only around a month.
I have been offering a non-sexual domme service since leaving J, and am now going to be working with Apple Escorts for 2-3 vanilla meets per week as well for the forseeable future. I will soon change my Adultwork profile accordingly.
As my current username on adultwork is VioletSadist - it's obvious to anyone that I get off on inflicting pain, and I refuse to be ashamed of that - there are girls and punters on here who are also sadists and masochists just the same - it's a matter of taste. My personal fetishes are just as valid as anybody else's.
Although I do not enjoy recieving pain at all, I enjoy being submissive sexually too, as anybody who has paid for my cam shows in the last year and a half knows. Having talked to other dommes and reading this I will be lowering my rates soon.
The arrogance that comes across in my AW profile is part of my domme mindset - I enjoy being the boss, being spoiled and worshipped, and inflicting pain. For me it's just a character to play that satisfies some of my needs, just like any kind of paid escort plays her part. As I said, this profile will be altered soon to offer different types of meets at different rates.
I can be very sweet too... funny how many people got disturbed by my profile when I know I'm a sweet, harmless creature unless I'm being given express permission to hurt somebody