New posting here but have lurked for quite a while
It’s abit embarrassing really and I’m not sure if I’m entirely alone in doing this but occasionally when I’ve had a drink I start to look up local escorts , I’ve even gone as far as to create an adult work account and I’ll often send messages enquiring , I’ll sometime even call them up and enquire.
When I’ve had a drink My sex drive really increases and somehow I’ve gone from looking at porn to this , I feel bad sometimes because I have a girlfriend that would 100% leave me if she caught drift of this. I would never do it sober that’s the thing , I love her but the sex can be very hit and miss after 11 years together and my sex drive is much higher than here.
I realise this is a site for actually meeting escorts maybe one day i willl but I can’t help the thrill I get from sending these messages ; I’ve recently had some bad feedback left on my adult work account for making appointments and then not turning up as the next day when I wake up sober I don’t want to do it , I’ve corne close before, asked one to drive out through lockdown for a car meet we arranged a location , she drove through called me saying she was there but I just couldn’t leave the house to go through with it , I know this isn’t a therapy club but would really appreciate some advice why I’m doing this ?