I suppose that by any standard measure of the political spectrum, I am right of centre. I believe in free enterprise, freedom of speech and assembly, I believe graft is the key to success, and a strong family is the key to happiness and domestic and civil order. I'm OK with an unelected person as head of state, as well as being head of the military, the church, prisons and all the rest of it. I think imperial measurements are more 'human' than metric. I don't agree with drugs, and I believe in the law. I also accept we need state-run systems of education, health and defence and so on, and that we need an appropriate level of taxation to cover them all. And I support the military. Anti-EU too (obvs).
But I didn't used to think lile this at all when I was in my teens and 20s. My thinking then, as a rabid proto-commie, was the opposite of all these things. The state should take over everything. Borders are crap. The Army should be neutralised. Mao is top man, and all the rest of the Dave Spart-ite agenda.
I know mine has been a mental and intellectual journey many people have taken. Some stopped along the way and decided they were OK with being in the political centre, e.g. with Blair-ite, soft Labour thinking, and didn't go any further. Others I know have gone the whole hog and ended up living in the mountains of Wales or Wyoming, watching endless David Icke loops and stocking up on Spaghetti Hoops. But a lot of other former socialists I know, people now in their 50s and 60s, think the same as I do, but are afraid to ever voice such opinions.
The 20 year old me would have detested the 60 year old me. And the 60 year old me looks at the 20 year old, and thinks 'twat'.
So I sometimes wonder how this happened. Is it just exposure to life? The realisation you can't change the world by decree, only by letting people be? I don't claim any intellectual superiority, but I look at some of my still left-leaning friends and wonder how, after a lifetime of being exposed to the same things I have been, like travel, parenthood, running businesses and so on, that their hearts go all a-flutter when they see the hammer and sickle. I just see tyranny and death in that symbol, and wonder how the fuck I ever admired it.
Of course, there's always the possibility that as I get older still, I'll embrace communism/socialism all over again, and start thinking that the whole capitalist system's a crock. Does anyone ever go from hard or soft right, to hard left? I'm sure someone must've.
I guess a great deal of us sad fuckers on here are 50+, so I'd be interested to hear others' comments.