Hunter, just go to a party, it isn't anything like you fear, everyone is there for a good time (& or £££s lol), no obe is going to be taking too much norice of you but focusing upon their own perversions
I recently organised one in Cardiff, see Welsh review section, 3 girls and 11 guys for 2 hours, lots of different bidy sizes n shapes, sone experienced party goers and a few novices, they all enjoyed it thoroughly, at least 7 of the guys reviewed the party
So just find a girl who hosts or one of those organisations that hold them and jump in feet first, cock in hand, you'll wonder what all that fear was about!