It's now the first anniversary of the biggest setback I've had as a punter: the time that my former "regular" stole £900 from me. I know I've mentioned this in passing a few times since, but never in detail, and I probably should, as a warning to others who might get themselves into a similar situation. And even though I'll probably get some stick for getting myself into this mess, perhaps I'll feel better after I've finally got it off my chest! So here goes.
Back in the spring of 2013, my regular was struggling to pay the deposit on an apartment she wanted. She was up against a tight deadline, and there was a good chance that she wasn't going to make it. Meanwhile I'd had a windfall (a small inheritance), which I'd diverted into my punting account.
So I gave her £1000.
I made it very clear that it was a loan, not a gift: she accepted that (or so I thought: more on this later). I assumed she would spend what she needed, top it back up when she could, then give it back: but I also gave her another option. She could take it as advance payment on bookings instead, then "work it off" by seeing me 10 times at £100 per hour. I admit that I was hoping she might add a few "freebies" on the end (maybe 2 or 3)... but instead she considered it for awhile and then promised me
thirty bookings in all (20 freebies)!
At this point, I expect many of you are thinking "what a fucking idiot". In hindsight... yes, you're right, I guess I was thinking with the wrong part of my anatomy there. But she was an established escort with a good reputation, and she was buying a pad in Bristol, not about to run off somewhere. It was a gamble, but I thought it was an acceptable one. I was wrong.
From then on, booking her became noticeably more difficult. To be fair, she did have a run of bad luck (including a suspected tumour in her ear, diagnosed in May 2013: I don't know what happened about that, as she was still having tests when I lost contact with her). But there was also a worrying reluctance to answer my messages, requiring me to try several times over a week or so to get any response (she knew that I didn't live in Bristol and I needed to book an afternoon off work every time, so I needed to know in advance if she would be available). But nevermind, if I booked time off and she didn't reply in time, I could always see someone else (I was still seeing several other escorts, I wasn't "fixated" on just her). As long as I got my "allowance" eventually... right?
I managed to see her 4 times after that: in May, June, July, and September of 2013. All four meetings ended up happening about a week later than planned (in August I tried but then gave up: there were three others I wanted to see that month, so I booked them instead). The September meeting was postponed because she was quite ill, and seriously short of cash as a result (she was "coughing up blood" and after the earlier cancer scare I feared that this was late-stage lung cancer, but it turned out to be unrelated): so I let her have another £300 (and, yes, I know exactly how that sounds). She seemed very grateful and promised to add another 3 bookings to my allowance. When I mentioned that Fridays were the most convenient for me to see her, she said she would "reserve Fridays for me", but I wasn't sure what she meant by that...
...Nothing, apparently. I never saw her again.
It took me a long time to realise that she had ripped me off. She turned me down in mid-October of 2013 for what seemed a plausible reason (a family commitment), so I ended up seeing four others during October (I've had to cut down since, I'm running out of cash!). But later that month, when I tried to reschedule for Friday November 1st... nothing. No response for a week or so to emails, texts, phonecalls... and yet she was showing as "available" all that week and on that day. It was rather irritating, as I ran out of time to make other arrangements, still trying to contact her on the day.
Was it her illness, perhaps? Maybe she wasn't taking advance bookings because she didn't know if she'd be up to it? After waiting another week, I sent her a very polite email asking if she was OK. As I didn't know what the problem was, I also considered the possibility that she just didn't want to see me anymore (I've read about escorts dumping regulars without warning if they feel the relationship was getting "inappropriate": had she done that?), so I offered to back off and leave her alone if that's what she wanted:
...I see no reason why we can't just carry on as before. But if you want to end it, let's do it properly. Since April I have given you £1300 and seen you four times: so I'll accept a £900 refund, and I will never bother you again (and I won't expect an immediate payment either: some sort of instalment arrangement will be fine)...
Still no reply.
And so it continued, throughout November and into December. No replies to a series of emails and texts (and a few unanswered phonecalls too), as it began to dawn on me that something was VERY wrong. She was showing as "Available today" almost every day, and picked up two feedback entries from guys she met in November (and she posted new pictures taken in the apartment I helped her to buy)... but she wouldn't see me anymore.
I didn't know what to make of it. I was worried about her health, but also pissed off at her refusal to see me, or to at least tell me what was going on. After two months of increasingly exasperating failed attempts to contact her, I went to her apartment. She was out on tour, but I left a written statement accusing her of theft: by this time, her refusal to answer was so obvious and deliberate that "being pissed off" had won out. This did finally produce a response, but it was little more than "Fuck off or I will call the police" (she had apparently decided to treat me as a "stalker", rather than a paid-up client who was wondering where his money had gone). Still no mention of why she had cut me off in the first place, and no mention of my refund. I had to leave it for awhile (family holiday over Xmas).
In January I noticed that she had missed a booking due to illness. This made things awkward: I was all set to "go public" in February, but if she was still in poor health, that didn't seem ethical. I decided that even though I still wanted my money back, I didn't need it back
urgently: I could wait. So in early February I sent her a text and a UKpunting Private Message, to let her know that I was postponing further action against her for "at least a few months", and saying that I hoped she would get better. No response.
Then, out of the blue, I received a reply to my PM in mid-March: "You won't do anything anyway as I don't owe you any money". WTF? It's as if she
wanted to commit "career suicide" over this! Just how hard should I try to protect her from her own stupidity??? I replied, pointing out that she definitely
did owe me a refund, and that it would be entirely appropriate for me to report her as a thief. We exchanged a few messages, and she finally gave me the reason that I had been waiting
five months to hear.
Apparently it was because I had used the "L-word" in our September booking. Which I had, in a moment of weakness (the "coughing up blood" incident had gotten to me, I'd thought she was dying for awhile): I had apologised immediately, we joked about it at the time, and I had assumed it wasn't a big deal.
I've heard of escorts dumping "infatuated" clients, but only after the client had turned into a harasser/stalker: not just because he uttered one inappropriate word! If anything, I became more of a "stalker" AFTER she dumped me, when I was trying to find out what the fuck was going on! And if she was
really concerned about my supposed fixation on her, then why did she make it so much worse by refusing to give me my money back???
And technically she had used that word first, anyhow: on the day I gave her that £1000 and she had promised me those 30 bookings, she had said "I could almost... love you. As a friend". She had then said that she would like us to become friends, and seemed rather miffed that I was seeing another escort that afternoon: "Oh well, at least I have my Tom" (her boyfriend at the time). But nothing ever came of that, she always treated me as a client subsequently, we never got to "hang out together" outside the bookings (I offered to give her driving lessons, but she refused)... I assumed she was just a bit emotional at the time, and accepted that.
But I had been promised 30 bookings for the price of 10: I received 4 bookings for the price of 13. She was a liar and a thief. And quite possibly mentally unstable, if she really did flip from "offering a client 20 freebies" to "stealing £900 from that client and cutting him off" for such a trivial reason. I'm pretty sure the
real reason was simple negligence: she already had my money, therefore she had no incentive to carry on seeing me, and I had become an inconvenience. I think her health deteriorated in October and she was missing bookings, so she concentrated on only seeing guys who were still paying (she had done that to me once before, and had eventually admitted that it was because she had "bills to pay"): if she'd had the decency to TELL me that, then I would have accepted it, and waited for awhile. But she ignored me instead, then couldn't admit what she had done, and needed an excuse. I think she also came to resent "having to see me for free" anyhow.
In our discussions in March, she came up with some utterly pathetic excuses. Apparently the money had been "a gift" (even though I had said very clearly at the time
"this is a loan, not a gift"), and our four subsequent bookings had been "acts of charity" on her part: she refused to accept that I had paid her for sex (apparently I didn't understand the rules and I was guilty of "not sticking to the guidelines of escort decorum" by paying in advance, but it's supposedly OK to refuse to deliver a paid-for service and then confiscate any money that a client has paid). She insisted that this was all due to "infatuation" and refused to consider any other explanation, coming up with comments such as "this is your way of getting back at me because I wouldn't see you anymore", and begging me to "find someone else who is better for you, please" (but of course refusing to give me back the money I'd need for that). She also claimed that she couldn't possibly owe me any money because there was nothing in writing: she didn't seem to understand the concept of a "verbal contract" or the importance of "keeping your word". Also, my threat to expose her as a thief was "blackmail", and she would call the police if I didn't back off: she knew that I was a married man with kids, and helpfully pointed out that any police action would destroy my marriage and wreck my family. That just pissed me off, it didn't help her at all.
But she was still a single mother who
might be battling cancer (and maybe clinical depression: her bizarre behaviour would fit that, I've seen similar before). I eventually decided that I just didn't have the stomach to wreck the career of someone in that position. So I gave up.
Was I right to do so? I still wonder about that. Not knowing her actual health situation has made this especially difficult for me. If she had been terminally ill, there's no way that I would have wanted to wreck her career and possibly cause her to lose her home in her final months, and what she did to me was utterly trivial compared to what fate had done to her. But if it was just an ear infection, or a cyst, or a benign tumour... then she had gotten away with robbing me of nearly a thousand pounds, and that has had a significant impact on my punting since. I have a few grand in a secret bank account, but otherwise my budget for this is about £100 per month (all I can manage to smuggle out of the joint account). And it's not as if I did anything to deserve this... except (supposedly) uttering one word!
The moral of this should be clear: DON'T lend money to a prostitute, under ANY circumstances. I thought it would actually be safer than lending it to others, not just because they can earn so much (as my new regular put it, when I told her: "We're not poor!"), but because they don't even have to save up cash for the repayments: they just lie back, open their legs, and one hour later a chunk of debt is gone. But I underestimated the resentment factor, and the fickle and untrustworthy nature of (probably) most of them: if you put yourself in that position, you are only one temper-tantrum away from financial disaster.
And I suppose I also have to accept that maybe the woman I gave that money to didn't survive her illness: her body now appears to be occupied by a rather unpleasant stranger. But perhaps I never really knew her. There was a mysterious incident when our very first meeting was postponed by a day because she spent the afternoon in a police station, after an "incident with a nasty client" that she didn't want to discuss. Perhaps he was an asshole... but he might have been a fellow victim. I will never know.
I have tried to be philosophical about it. After all, if she hadn't ripped me off, I still wouldn't have that money back, I'd just be committed to seeing the most unreliable escort I have ever met (though she was better
before her illness): every meeting consisted of an hour of pleasure preceded by a week or more of frustration. And after she "cut me loose", I wasn't so concerned about her illness, it wasn't my problem anymore. But I can't help thinking about how else I could have spent that wasted £900 (half a dozen bookings with my new regular, for instance). Meanwhile others can still book my former regular for much less money than I paid: I've been discriminated against
because I was too generous (or maybe because I cared about her illness too much), and the unfairness of that still hurts - even though I don't have any particular urge to see her anymore, I still wince whenever her name comes up on here. I've never been dumped from an actual relationship before, I seem to have inadvertently purchased a "girlfriend experience".
And everything I've read since about this sort of arrangement between an escort and a cient has said pretty much the same thing. Almost every single time, the client who has paid in advance finds himself "sent to the back of the queue" over and over again, on one pretext or another, until she stops bothering with him altogether and it all ends badly. As Vorian put it awhile back, "Once they have your money, they don't give a fuck. Literally". If this thread stops anyone else from entering into such an arrangement, then that can only be a good thing.
There are also lessons to be learned here by
escorts, in how NOT to get rid of an unwanted client. As soon as I began to suspect that she didn't want to see me anymore, I wanted OUT: but she refused to let me go! What guys in this situation need is a
clean break, a chance to move on as quickly and painlessly as possible (and finding a new escort is a lot easier than finding a new girlfriend, so that
shouldn't be a problem). But telling a client that you
might have a life-threatening illness, then clamming up and stealing his money... that is a fuck-up of EPIC proportions!
But a year later she's still around, and she is a UKpunting member (though she has rarely posted). This thread isn't really intended for her, but as a warning to others, but maybe she will read this and consider what she did to me. I still don't expect that I will ever see either her or my money again, but if she has any trace of conscience left, she might regret what happened... though I have no illusions that she would actually do anything about it. She's the only escort on my blacklist and I've mostly ignored her since, but I checked recently (maybe I shouldn't have?) and apparently she's off on holiday, at my expense. But maybe she isn't, maybe that's a cover story, and her "holiday" is actually in a hospital somewhere? Will I ever know? Will she ever care? Unlikely, I suppose.