With massage / he all you have to do is take your clothes off and lay down, the girl will do the rest. My advice would be to make an effort to talk to her, it will calm your nerves and it's worth learning how to get on with these girls as there are benefits to that which you will appreciate further down the road. Just get the first one done and dusted and have a good think about how it went, what did you like, what didn't you like. Good luck, remember to breathe.