I’m happy you’ve sorted yourself out. But don’t you see any similarities between yourself and Riolaa ? You both ultimately blame external factors for your life going off the rails. Granted she’s in the grips of a delusional rants and not very coherent, but the principle is still the same. Demonising external sources for ones own current, or in your case past, situation.
She’s in the midst of whatever psychiatric condition she has, so she’s obviously tweeting a lot of delusional stuff about the present. Main difference. In the past she may have been raped or robbed. Whereas your centers around friends , who you could have walked away from, not being nice to you.
A great point. I do feel I am the blame of my situation. For one, before all that, some of my former friends have been not shown the same respect to me as I did to them (e.g. forgetting to pay back money to me which he borrowed). You could say I was being the nice guy and being ok of being stepped on. No wonder those guys treated me the way they did. But some of those "friends" who did not unfriended me/black listed me only wanted to contact me for an ego boost and bully me. That was then I walked away from those guys. So yes I took action and learnt from that experience. I also aren't to open to bring any person in my life until I know that person is ok (just being a cool guy does not count). I filter out who can come in my life or not. That said, if I stayed blaming myself I don't think it would helped with my depression if I did not moved on and do something with my life.
(Sorry I did not add that part as I did not want to drag on about the drama as we are talking about Rio Lee).
But unlike me, we don't know how Rio Lee has become the way we see her today. Porn industry has stories of drug abuse and etc... To go into some industry knowing this plus knowing most likely that you can't get a normal job/life after you leave the porn industry makes me think that she did not think of outcomes or more likely did not care. And now with her not being the "it" girl anymore, drugs and can't go back to normal life, she now found out that party is over and she can't handle that. That were the similarities between me and Rio Lee end. They been countless of stories of nice people not experiencing what I have but I can't see how being nice to the wrong people = getting into industry with negative side of it like drugs.
Anyways hope she gets the help she needs.
