Metalgear, you come across as a right sad case tbh.
Of your 12 reviews, only 4 are positive, and in truth, it's hard to distinguish between them being positive and the others. Given thìs, and the fact on almost every review you tell us how much you struggle to get a hard on, have you ever thought this punting lark may not be for you?
I think the signs are there mate, save your money, and buy some decent health insurance with the savings, as that sounds like it could be far more worthwhile for you.