Hi guys this is my first post on this site and would really appreciate some honest genuine advice and guidance. I'll try to keep my OP fairly brief.
I've been facing a dilemma in my head for a long time and thought I'd throw the question out there and maybe experienced punters could share some experiences and help.
I'm in my early 20s (virgin) and I've seen around 15 girls. Not for sex (intercourse that is) but mainly for girls who specialise in erotic sensual massages. Done a lot of travelling to find girls but it's been definitely worth it !!!.
Honestly up to this point I have no regrets and this site has definitely helped me by reading reviews prior to my visit. I feel with a nice massage I can get to know and respect the girl a little better and have a nice chat at the end. Obvs some girls are more friendlier than others.
I was a regular with one girl for a few months and visiting her was like getting a nice top up of energy that kept me going through life's stresses. Definitely a wonderful time !!!
I've had the courage to visit 3 escorts who provided sex but honestly for some stupid reason I pussied out when it came to penetration. Done oral sex (giving and receiving) but just never penetration. I know Virginity is literally just a postage stamp label that literally means nothing but society has hyped it up so much.
I'm sure this is going to sound stupid to some of you punters but I just have in my mind the whole notion around the day I will find the love of my life and lose it with her in some romantic fairy tale way. Or the day she asks "when did you lose your v card hun ?".
Those 2 factors have really stopped me from engaging in penetrative sex.
Another reason is because when I was with those escorts I felt absolutely NO intimacy whatsoever. Despite them being extremely HOT, the kissing and cuddling just didn't feel the same as with a girl you personally know. So I just couldn't convince myself to lose it.
Other reasons are obviously (since I'm new to punting) the fear of getting an STD. Obviously I would never go bareback but I had OWO with an escort before and noticed something a little strange down there. Went to the GUM clinic and it turned out to absolutely nothing to worry about but the whole experience is very embarrassing (especially since I'm in the medical profession).
Also I remember a top end escort I saw and during our chitchat she said most of her clients were in fact married man and some men were ridiculously addicted to punting in the sense they'd spend a ridiculous amount to fuel their addiction.
Tbh although money isn't really an issue for me, it's the addictive element I'm worried about especially knowing my personality !!!. Extremely stressful work along with lack of sexual intimacy + a whole world and option of pussy out there isn't going to end well if I get hooked.
I fear it could become an addiction and completely change the way I look at women from human beings to nothing but sex objects. Even though I agree with the fact that every women has her price at the end of the day and feminism has caused for most women to have their head up their arse, but yet they are still people who have emotions and should be respected.
The girls I've seen for massages (had tantra many times before, Nuru, other girls who do a decent massage with a nice HE and tit wank) are still limited in the sense that there's not many out there and they do the job for me however there's that part of me that really wants to have the full GFE especially after reading some of the positive reviews on here. Then there's another question of not knowing what to do when the action starts and facing that potential embarrassment. With a nice massage you obviously don't need to worry about that.
Honestly some days I really just wanna do it but all the above make me think whether or not putting a piece of rubber on my penis for a quick fuck is worth it ?
I really really appreciate in advance anyone who could share some good advice.
Many thanks in advance and it's glad to be on this site finally
