Now admittedly, I'm not the most frequent poster to the site and I dont want this to come across "fluffy" but hoping I can get some advise or at least some points of view.
I'm early 30s, in a longe term relationship and I am very much in love with my GF, however there are aspects of the relationship that are lacking, particularly in the bedroom, particularly in the oral department. My GF, isn't a massive fan of giving blowjobs, and Im lucky if I get one twice a year. Like any man, a blowjob is definitely a desired thing and so we've had conversations about it but nothings changed.
I was a user of escorts before the relationship and therefore never went without even when single.
My question simply, I struggle with the concept of "cheating" and I know if I got caught it would be goodnight Vienna and I'm not judging, each to their own, its just something I struggle with. However due the lack of, I have started to consider visiting an escort for OWO, purely because that's the one thing I desire that I'm not getting. I'm telling myself there wouldnt be any feelings involved, which there wouldn't be, and it's just the act and maybe in a weird backwards way it would actually help my relationship because it would take the frustration away that I feel.
Realistically I'm just looking for advise and opinions on this as I'm sure I'm not the first bloke in this boat.