I don’t know what to do about this I need somewhere to record the situation, vent to people who might understand and asked for advice. FYI, I have been punting for about 2½ years.
I only started after having no sex or even physical contact with my wife for over a year. I was going to be on a business trip over 100 miles away from home today, so last night I checked who was available on AW in that area and found a newbie WG (zero feedback) but only been on for 2-weeks, 20yo, 5’3”, 8st, blonde, offering everything I wanted, profile pics with blurred face but all seemed legit.
I drop an e-mail last night, which was never opened (now deleted) and a text early this morning, seeing as she was a newbie I thought she could be a little nervous so was ready for a little hassle, but the profile had me properly interested.
Had a very positive text exchange, she readily agreed to all my requests, Slutty Teen St Trin girl roleplay, spanking, all usual’s & Anal. We were just about to agree a time when she asked if I could send a pic so she might know who to expect. I have never sent a photo to a WG before.
I had given a physical description of myself, height & weight, not a monster or a movie star. This is the sort of thing you would never expect from an established girl and the sort of hassle I was expecting, and she was super-hot and we’d just agreed a fun packed hour, so I sent an image of me in the distance, yet still representative.
Get a text back saying
‘Sorry I can’t see u I kinda know u P***’ (my real first name). PANIC – I checked that I’d not included any personal info in the e-mail or text, all clear there, so I respond with
‘WOW, WTF, I assume discretion is assured’Get an unsettling response
‘Erm I dunno what to do or say this is mega awkward’I’m getting a little stressed here and send back
‘Do you kinda know me through business?’And then comes the hammer blow
‘I’m friends with K**** (my wife’s real first name). What the Absolute FUCK, how does a 20yo girl, more than 100miles from home know my wife and know me?
A bit of background here, I am in the process of divorcing my wife of 21 years, we have not had a real marriage for over 4 years now, and haven’t had sex since the spring of 2014. But I’m pretty sure that she has been keeping this quite with her friends.
So, I text back
‘Has she told you that I’m divorcing her and that we haven’t had sex in over 3½ years? I of course keep this aspect of my life very quiet as not to hurt anyone. This is also why I only seek services from people offering services well away from home. So to find someone who knows my soon to be ex-wife is almost unbelievable. I’m sorry to have put you in this position. However, as we’ve not met and the situation is what it is in my home life, I hope that you treat me with the professional courtesy anyone advertising on AW is asked to give.’
I get back the following unhelpful response
‘I don’t know what to say or do’I give it a minute, then send
‘I can’t help you there, I would only consider if sharing this new information helps anyone, you, me or K****?’Get another unhelpful response
‘I didn’t even want to do escorting. I’m losing my home and today was my last chance to sort what I needed. And now this. I’m screwed’I give this some thought and try to keep calm and reply with
‘I’m really sorry to hear that, look I’m not a bad guy, all I’m doing on AW is satisfying a physical need without having an affair. I’m a good dad to my grown up kids, I financially support K**** and will continue to do so after the divorce. If you feel you need to share this information, more harm will be caused in an already difficult situation.'That is where I left it, there has been no further contact.
So, what should or can I do now?
I have some level of protection, I am self-employed and fairly independently wealthy, I support my wife & kids, and due to my earning potential the Court will certainly order maintenance, so I'll continue to have to support her.
I work in a very male dominated profession with plenty of divorced guys who I know have punted, or at least get regular lap dances, so don't shy away from paying for it, so I'm sure they would understand situation if it ever came up.
My wife and I live extremely separate lives, we don't holiday together, I don't know any of her friends, she either isn't friendly with or doesn't know any of my friends. We don't hang out with each others family, I barely see mine.
I don’t feel guilt over seeing WG's, I never slept with an escort while we were having a physical relationship and only started after the wife turned off the tap and I'd tried for a year to rekindle the relationship with nothing but disgust from her. I always treat WG's respect, never force anyone to do anything that they don't want to. I have spare cash, so I spend the way I spend it, it's my hobby. I never question the way she spends my money. When we divorce she will be getting a big chunk of cash she didn't earn.
My kids are 18 (son) & 20 (daughter), they both support me in the divorce, they see how I have the shitty end of the stick, both believe that my wife has been living a single persons life for the last 4-years and in the past have both said that they wouldn’t blame me if I was sleeping with other people.
I’ve not been outed yet, but no matter what the sob story a WG shouldn’t be advertising services on AW if she's not willing to work within the mutual discretion it is based on.
I guess I’m seeking advice on whether I should try to get ahead of this. I’m wondering if I should come clean to the people that matter to me like my kids like and business partners. Or do I leave it?
Do I out the girl? I don’t have a face picture of her but I’ve screenshot all her information, and next chance I get I’m going to check my wife’s phone to see I can match the contact number to find a real name.
Should I name her as a potential outer on AW, UKP & UKE?
She hasn’t done it yet and she may not do it, so I don’t think I should name her today, if she does do it then obviously I’ll let you guys know to steer clear.
Should I clear my history on AW or cancel my account, she has my username so can see my previous feedback, 27?
If I were to come clean there would of course be some fallout, but also a slight benefit, the wife is dragging her heels on the divorce, not because she still loves me but because she has a very comfy life, doing what ever she wants and having me to pay for it and as I don’t know any of my wife’s friends and she doesn’t really know any of mine the social impact would be limited.
But there is always the chance that my wife could go psycho and send emails to all my email contacts saying 'Did you know my husband uses prostitutes' this is possible and would cause professional embarrassment, but the people who matter would live with this as long as I keep making them money.
So, yeah any advice guys I’m willing to listen to your suggestions.