For me it’s just a curiosity now, been looking at ts for a while and feel likes it an itch I need to scratch. Also think it’s a bit of something so shouldn’t be into but I am and that gets me going if you understand that? Don’t think I would ever be in the receiving end to be honest but doubt I would pay for it if I was
That's fine, all you need to do is find a TS that likes to be bottom - some, a very few, are only bottom - and make it clear beforehand what you want and, more importantly, don't want.
Probably best with a feminine submissive Thai - none of my regulars are on town at present so can't recommend anyone right now.