I'm posting this thread because I hope it is useful to others, who may find themselves in similar positions to how I did in the past or do now. I hope they can learn from my experiences. Sorry for similarities to other recent (repeating) posts about reasons for punting.
I still consider myself young (24), and just over 18 months ago I embarked on a journey that would challenge my very beliefs and push myself in certain directions. I decided to have my first punt. From the other threads people punt because they don't get the sex they want at home from girlfriends or wives, or they punt because it's a quicker/easier to get laid if you have the money. I had very different reasons. I needed it. Here is my life story:
Due to certain events during my childhood I won't go into, I spent a lot of my teen years, and even into university times being very hesitant in my interactions with girls. Occasional glances in school classes and the odd one word hello in the corridors were about as far as I was confident to go. I fancied plenty of them and could even hold conversations at times, but was never able to get the point of kissing, let alone sexual activities.
I was not a virgin when I had my first punt. I lost my virginity two years previous, when I was aged 20. It was a drunken one night stand with a girl from a club who asked me back to hers, so I took her up on it. She made all the moves and was surprised when I told her I was a virgin. Considering the poor performance I gave that night it was not a surprise she didn't want to see me again.
Two years passed with me often chatting to girls in bars/clubs but getting absolutely nowhere. I became an expert at feigning confidence. I could approach and start conversations, but I was never truly confident enough to make a move.. to try to kiss or to lead things further. I was scared at the idea of ultimately having sex and doing it badly again. Worse still I couldn't believe anyone would honestly desire that from me, and I had no wish to trick/lie girls into bed as i'd seen friends to. I couldn't get over that and I subconsciously made sure I was never in a situation where sex was a possible outcome.
This was incredibly frustrating. I wanted sex. I realised that unless I proved to myself a girl could not only want, but also enjoy having sex with me I would never be able to get to that point. So I came up with a way to build sexual confidence, by making sure I could and would have sex, by punting.
Over the last 18 months I have now had six punts, the initial three of which were HoD. I'd seen good reviews on prossienet from the parlour in general and it seemed easy enough to go through with. I was treated well with a nice businesslike punt initially, followed by a couple of better GFEs. I then found UKPunting and it's reviews of AW girls. I've seen a couple who were well reviewed and made me feel very at home. I also found out about LMP and took a trip to really push my limits.
I didn't like LMP overall, but from that and the other punts I did learn a lot about myself and I know what i'm looking for and what i'm capable of. I left my last punt having realised I was making the moves. I'm immensely more confident now, and that's real. I can say that having this weekend having had a nice civvie girl in my bedroom for the night for the first time in years, I believe that punting truly did help me shed my sexual demons. If I return to punting now, it will be for different reasons. In the meantime there will be plenty of lucky civvy girls who get to spend bedroom time with me.
I consider that a success.
