Couple of days ago, I got a text when I woke up first thing in the morning. It was from a girl I knew, I had been out with her once, real cute asian in her early twenties, similar age to me but the hard part was she had just finished Uni and had left the country not too long ago. I had been thinking of her a lot and she did mention she would come back to the county to go for a PhD and been in email contact since, so I am thinking I might be in luck in the future.
So I read the text and it said something like this: "Hi [My real name], I noticed your phone number is on the phone of LittleLou (or some hooker esque sounding name), she is a friend of mine. I am sorry I can't see you again if you do this sort of thing".
My immediate reaction was to just think "oh fuck" and I felt part of my insides dying, but the bit that gave it away was it WAS ALL A FUCKING DREAM.
I woke up and checked my text history to find no record of this, plus upon a reality check I realized I'd never seen or heard of an escort with a name like "LittleLou" or something, plus why the fuck would she be friends with a WG and go through her punting phone? Crazy paranoid shit.
It did get me thinking, things like "why did I not use a punting phone before" and also evaluating the impact of the reality if some of the girls I have dated found out about my punting life, their reactions. List doesn't stop there...what about work colleagues? Friends? Families? What if my number is online somewhere, I immediately double checked I hadn't linked it to my FB account at this point. For the married/living with a partner guys out there, I know this is the sort of thing that you prepare for every time you punt, so I guess it's second nature to you. For me, I have been in one relationship since I started punting and made a choice to be faithful, only lasted a few months (I can imagine if it had lasted years I might get tempted back) but I don't know the reality of the actual fear of discovery. Even if I was an ex-punter I'd still have some paranoia.
Anyone else ever had this sort of dream? I kind of hope it is a 'no' and it's all dreams of pounding some fit bird in every position.
