Hi Sacred, can I ask, just out of curiosity, did you ever go through with the punt?
No not yet, thanks for asking.
I know that'll probabaly sound silly to most on here who do it regularly.
But for now Ive just kind of thought I'll just be, work on myself, and carry on doing what interests me by myself, and see if anything happens to happen naturaly but without trying to force things.
I.E trying not to feel in a panic about it.
Its not the labels of inexperience that bother me.
Only having a strong drive hah.
But one thing I do feel I need to remove any trace of is any programmed notion of a "first time" needing to be "right" and perfect more than any other time. As if after that it doesn't count or something. I only have abit of that because I gone so long, and had time to think about it.
I haven't really disregarded the idea of this route, and now and then I still go back and forth about it. I can really see it in two halves exactly. Points about it that seem just right for me, and points completley against it at the same time.